Dear Dear Will

Will died Tuesday, May 23, 2023 — at least that’s when I went to say good morning to him and he wasn’t alive.

Here’s what I wrote to my friends:

I used to joke about Will sleeping through his alarm, and I’d get tired of hearing the alarm and go to check to see if he was breathing. It was a running joke, for all of our time together. Well… Today when his alarm continued to ring, he was not breathing. Will died in his sleep overnight. I’m just shaking my head that he got to die the way he wanted to!! He’s been unwell most of the spring, and the winter wasn’t too good, either. While I am saddened that I am without his company, I am glad that he did not suffer, did not have prolonged illness, and was able to be home at the end.
 

It’s been a very hard winter for us. His health wasn’t great (tired, sleeping a lot, brain fog) and I was definitely not good company — I felt locked in place — unable to move forward or go back. The two deaths in the Walker family weighed on me, plus my friend with brain cancer and another friend with breast cancer. I hated to see Will so down, and I felt so helpless to bring either one of us out of the darkness.

We were just starting to really work with the yard and garden project, planted carrots, zukes, tomatoes and carrots. Reworked the landscape where the big maple tree used to be. Enjoyed Frosty, even when he still jumped the fence — he doesn’t run away any more!!